Take it as you will....

Some things I need to get off my chest:

I am 26, I don't quite know where I want to be in 10 years I know I worked hard for a degree in Conservation Biology and never had the time to volunteer until the last year. I know I want to work in my field.

I do and do not want to get married. I want my finances to be mine not someone elses (not necessarily pertaining to the SO). I also do not want to be forced through a divorce if shit doesn't work out. I kind of liked the Sex and the City 2 idea, having your own place to retreat to, sometimes. I do, however, still enjoy romance and marriage is just another way to show how much you truly love someone and want to be with them forever.

I am 26, I don't know if I want children, sometimes I do, sometimes I don't, there is more to life than having children to some people, respect that. If I can find a field job I may decide against children because I plan to travel sometimes to study. If I can't find a field job and I get to the point of wanting a child that is something I will decide then. I used to want kids, then some shit happened, and now I don't quite know what I want.

I am a mother....I have dogs, cats, ferrets, bunnies, and a snake. All of these things breathe, live and die and require basic needs, like food, shelter, water and even more. I have to provide for them financially and emotionally much like others have to do for a child. I know what love is, I know what it feels like to care for something that is fully dependent on you, I don't live under a box.

I have been lied to and it hurts. Some things you just can't take back and even though you think you are sheltering me from these things you're not...and it does affect my decision making. 

You do NOT know how I feel.

If you think this world is butterflies and puppies its not, its an ugly world out there, some pretty nasty shit goes on.

Not everyone wants to be nice and sugar coat things for those people clearly living under a box. I feel its proper to be honest and real (guess I belong on the reality shows like Bad Girls Club and Jersey Shore) and sometimes people need that smack in the face reality check to get back on track with reality!

I am....me.....I think I am a good person and tho I have been through some nasty horrible stuff, it has made me who I am. Some things are newer and so I am still figuring myself out in those situations, but in the end I regret nothing that I have done because.....well.....I am me.